I'm moving here 

:)

Time to read MacBeth again :>

just combed the article that Dr Goh Keng Swee's wife
wrote. Love against all odds.

I especially love this quote from Mrs Goh: "If you do things out of love, it is a pleasure and not a chore."

sob :<

today i saw a not-so-young woman in bright purple leggings. i'm proud of her bravery.

i smashed a second cake at work today :/ and shrieked while seeing it fall to the ground, in front of a customer. how very embarrasssing!

work ended at 3pm instead of 6 yesterday, so i went upstairs to shop and bought a dress. i was counting the number of hours i had to work to buy the dress, but it was a reward for myself for..? i dont know.. then very quickly, i got hungry so i decided to get fries and go back and have it with my colleagues! the hierachy in a company is so typical that life without the boss around is Always (with a capital A) so much more relaxing & enjoyable. even though work isn't as bad as before, i hope my job next time will have a lot of different aspects so it isn't just doing one same thing day after day. for the first time in centuries, i took a bus home without fretting over whether i'll be late, without having to rush. and it was also the first time where i fell asleep on the bus alone, second time i fell asleep on a bus. i dont feel safe enough to sleep in a public bus usually. people may catch you looking unglam or your phone may drop etc.

my philippines colleague told us about her superstitious buddhist mum and it was so cute and intriguing knowing that philippines people had same beliefs as the chinese!

Peace to the bangkok red shirts <3

Obesity

I'm having my second supper for the day. Just now it was fish and chips, minus the chips, red-skinned potatoes with garlic, and now, 4hours later, I am eating ice cream. Hurray fat girl!

I put the tub of ice cream on top of the toaster for 3minutes to thaw the ice
cream then went to check/spy on Summer. It's raining, so my poor puppy was lying in the porch just at the spot where she barely gets wet but still will feel some splashes of rainwater. The wind blew the blinds so they made some loud noise and baby doggy was startled. I wish she could stay inside the house with us ):

i've been craving for Koi. Kind soul please buy me Koi bubble tea and I will be eternally grateful!

I wanna go on a holiday very badly!

And Preferably to Australia, or America. We haven't gone back to Aussie since we left our home at strohfeldt street (cool spelling I know!) in 2000. It's been a billion years and I wanna go backkkk! :( my friends from glennie (my school there) says the place has changed a lot. Sob!

Otherwise, I don't mind uncle ben so I can check out the cool places that travel and living shows go to! Amazing pizza and hotdogs and fish & chips yummmm. And shopping spree wheeee!

I feel happy suddenly but I forgot that it isn't even confirmed we're going there
sigh :(

I hate it how shihui told me uni is starting soon already. And some job agent asked me if I could work aug 2- 26 for YOG omg man that's totally the period I would be hoping time could turn its back on itself, I would totally kill myself if I worked then.

Oh holidays, I miss you already I'm gonna quit my job this
week! (determined)

Lovers, keep on the road you're on
Runners, until the race is run
Soldiers, you've got to soldier on
Sometimes even right is wrong

Y: so, option 1?
N: nooo?!

I take back what I said about work being enjoyable; I am so gonna quit soon.

I have also recently found out what it is exactly that I want in life. And I feel so mature that I've finally figured it out. Some people want to have the most prestigious job and be the highest flyer in the corporate world, some people may even want to have a shot at fame, some people just want to be rich no matter how they get the ca$h it just doesn't matter and me, I'm truly contented with what I've figured out.

I'll work on it (: Oh I think I've already started working on it anyway.

Bought a pair of shoes today. Oh oh while chatting with nette online I suddenly had this vision of us driving around singapore together and I feel so totally egg-cited!!! Chermk nettey hurry get your licensessss :) 8 points and below okay!! <3

My best friend died in a car accident on his way to deliver me soup for my cold.

Found in the car was also a bouquet of flowers and a card that read:

“We’ve been best friends for the last 5 years. Now, let’s be lovers for the next 50.”

Omg what a sad and like typical romance story (minus the death part :( ) got this from
ck's tumblr! My tumblr is like for fun I hardly
go there haha.

I miss last weekend..

Hi I'm on the way to work and I am late!

But apparently something happened with the circle line train and that explains it all. It's my second day of work, and I really think I'm totally not someone who can serve others because I simply don't have that "I'm so bubbly and I want to serve you even when I'm tired and irritated and hungry and the food freaking smells so good?!?" when I'm angry I'll just show you my anger but now I cant!! so I wad quite proud that I actually had fun on my first day of work, despite it being quite a culture shock.

I went to work during peak (lunch) and had to start serving. I served a man his pasta which we usually garnish with cheese (like duh right pasta always comes with cheese?) but he said in this condescending tone that "I don't want cheese! Did you ask me if I want cheese?" I wanted to say "sir, if you don't want cheese then you should say so earlier and anyway how could I have asked you when I just started work 5mins ago??" apparently he said he's in a hurry and can't wait for us to prepare another serving for him so he wants me to take out the Flakes of cheese out and bring it back to him in one minute, yes he mentioned 1 minute. Anyway we cooked another plate and he sat there for about 45mins chatting with his friend!!!

Anyway I'm reaching my station wish me a good day at work! :)

I will always love you

How someone seemingly so joyful and contented left just like that, leaving her loving family behind.

Her pictures give us every reason to think and believe she's a lucky girl. what made her leave, I don't know, but judging from the hundreds of posts on her facebook memorial page, she sure is one popular pretty girl. I hope she's happy up in heaven with the angels and cherubs.

To all those out there who know I love you, I love you and cherish you! Even if I'm grumpy sometimes, deep down you are loved.

I'm going to bed now, with this sense of fragility and the loneliness that her sister is feeling right now is running through my head; the despair, the frustration, the doubts that can't be confirmed..

Pray that I pass my traffic police test tmrw & have a clear, composed mind during it!

I've been feeling really happy recently. That tremendous weight off my chest.

SMU interview was rather relaxed and the people were really nice and not aggressive like some made it out to be. We'll just see how it goes the next few days.

I think hips with jutting bones are nice.

Dropped by Jurong Point after shopping with mum, after the interview, had dinner at a HK cafe and i loved the braised pork belly with rice and pearl green milk tea mmm :) i'm hungry again!

Unnecessary worry = good/bad

The letter I got today really made my day and even entire month! Have been feeling so gloomy and unwanted until today!!!!! :) :) It was so exciting i could feel the tingling sensation rush through my blood through every capillary in my body. I thought i stood no chance but yay anyway!

Good luck for Your interview <3

It's your turn to relax and even though things are crazily rushed for you - portfolio etc, i know you have what it takes!

Summer made two doggy friends today, both golden retrievers, one's coat is dark like hers-to-be and one's coat is white. Another milestone in her doggy life. I'm so proud of her!

It was a cycle, like the wheel hamsters run in - no matter how fast or far you run, you never get out. I got caught in it.

Now, i'm falling into a hole that's deeper than all valleys.

I don't know what there is to do to help, the only thing i can do is put the blame on me.

I have no place to go.

Goodbye my friend- braces.

I appreciate all that you've done for me and with me;
you gave me ulcers and sore teeth, but I don't blame you cause my teeth are corrected now.
I won't say i'll miss you, but I may feel naked without you as my teeth armour.
Where will I find you again?

The Unloved

watching how to train your dragon made me think Toothless was a cat-looking, winged, flying, fish-eating version of summer. I related so many things Hiccup did with it to summer. From him giving the I'm-so-innocent-don't scold-me face, to the sharing food part which Summer doesn't do, to wondering if summer will rescue me if she senses another dog attacking me.

By the way, yesterday I spent 5 minutes chasing my obedient puppy around the garden cause she cheekily jumped and got my hair tie and started playing catch! I was so scared she would swallow it, so I ran my best. And at the same time, I was so embarrassed and hoped no neighbourds were watching from their windows.

Nonetheless, just like how Hiccup told that girl to keep Toothless safe if his battle with that scary dragon ended badly, I would do that if I went overseas to study for half a decade. Summer see how much we love you? You should be grateful that you get to eat beef with every meal while other mongrels get scrap food on good days and be a good girl!!

Worry possum

Cherm and I visited SN (met lots of teachers) and then shopped the entire day from 12-6pm. Got everything I wanted, and almost everything she wanted. Even visited the facial parlour! We've never had such a fruitful trip since primary 6. So cherm says God is helping us make up for all the times when we went home empty handed.

Still, Please lock up my debit card!

Met Huishan in the queue to the shuttle bus back home from the mrt station, and thought it was so coincidental.

Boarded the bus, and there Celeste was standing on my left!!

So there we were, 3 primary 6 classmates, in 1 bus, at 1 time.

This thing called NS is quite a waste of time.

It is one of the causes of Singapore's low birth rate, so don't go blaming women for not wanting to marry cause of their better job prospects nowadays. Delay guys by 2 years, and that means logical people get married approximately 2 years later as well. Then, the women give birth to less children as they soon hit the age of 30, when they say that pregnancy has increased risks of birth defects and so on.

From a forward-looking point of view, which our government is deemed as, as I do agree on that, I think that 1 year of military training and then reservist perhaps more intense than what we have now, would be more practical than jailing the guys up for 2 whole years.

Just wait, till i become the next Prime Minister...

have fun in NS! >:/

You should love her.


Last day of work tomorrow, and although I'll be so free every weekday from next monday onwards, I realised I may be wasting time away without work.

1. Waking up late
2. Surfing the net
3. Spending money
4. Not earning money
5. Falling into a expenditure/savings deficit

And I'll miss my colleagues :(

Gave some of my submissions to them, and I hope it'll be another way that they will remember me in the next month at least (on top of the farewell notes), when they count their submissions at the end of April and think "Wow, thanks to Julia I can meet my target and earn commission!" And while they're fretting over meeting targets, I'll probably be fretting over whether I can pass my Traffic police test.

Goodbye RBS! It was an enjoyable 1 month and a week. love love love

I looooved work today. Team manager was not around, and I practically slacked the whole away, talking to colleagues, writing farewell notes to all, playing with the iPhone.

I also loved the fact that I'll be tendering my resignation letter tomorrow, although it really seems kinda wasted that we've forged those friendships with all our friendly helpful colleagues :(

At least i'll have more time for driving lessons, though. Practical test is on 31 Apr and i MUST PASS!!!

Summer is a big baby now, and i'm so proud of her. She went on her first walk last friday. I'll upload the pics another time! :)

And another baby will return home tomorrow!!!!!! Happy happy day. I love you.

Something must be wrong.

It can't be hormonal imbalance, cause I already had my period, but i've been feeling awfully gloomy and worried and frustrated. Ever since this morning when I stepped foot into the MRT on the way to work - Seeing couples showing their affection for each other, listening to "littlest things" on my iphone, watching the blackfaces from superiors at work, lousy and uncooperative clients, how i want to quit instantly but am held back by commitments to the boss etc, everything just added on to the "I AM SO FED-UP!#)@!(#*@)!@(#* corner in the emotional segment of my brain.

Everything started falling through, crashing down, since Mar 6. Everything including me.

Abel, come back from bastard brunei now! :(

After NUS open house with Abel, we lunched at Wisma together with wilson, went back and took a nap while he ironed his Smart 4, then had dinner with Iype fok shufan hiro at din tai fung (same old place) as well as grocery shopping at NTU. I then came home to Summer, who was sitting at the gate waiting for me like the loyal dog everyone yearns to own.

She's become more protective of our property, barking at strangers who walk by as though she's a german shephard when she's only a tiny little puppy, not even half the size of a full grown goldie. And she talks to the 3 shetland sheepdogs and the other Golden retriever which are a few houses away as well. Wonder if they understand her puppy talk.

Love how she walks up to you with a toy and gives you a nudge, and if you ignore her, she'll choose another toy, and then another, till you play with her.

She's really happy to see you after a day at work, and all the weariness just floats to the back of your head and makes you want to play with her till you really can't take it and fall asleep.

How lucky we are to have such a cute, sensible doggy. I'll love you forever summer baby :)

Loved today, all the people i love, i met. Except the one who was at the IT Fair. Haha see you tmrw dear :)